Yes, it's true. I'm a mom and I feel guilty, not for treating my parents poorly when I was a kid, though. I just feel guilty. Every thing's my fault. Can't do anything right. No, I'm not in the midst of a pity party or anything. It's just the truth.
Nobody bothered to tell me before I become a mom that I would struggle with mass quantities of guilt. I was a stay at home mom for a while and felt guilty for not "contributing." I got a job and felt guilty for not being a full-time mom. I take it easy and pick my battles carefully but feel guilty for not upholding the law (of our house). I crack down on the kids and feel guilty for punishing them. After all, kids have these big, beautiful, innocent eyes that ... well ... I'm a sucker, what can I say. I can't help but feel that every little rash, cold, tantrum, mess, tear, low grade, cavity, cough, etc., is somehow related to something I did. So, imagine my guilt when my son was born with a birth defect. The doctors say there is no known cause and have reassured me that it's nothing I did. But, the guilt lingers, 7 years later.
I know I'm a good mom. My kids are happy, healthy, kind, intelligent, beautiful children. They are always happy to see me and always want me around, even if I had to punish them for breaking a mom law. I know that, despite not having family close by or many friends, I do the best I can for my babies every day. So, why do I feel so guilty so often? Is it something I did that I don't realize I did? Or is it simply just a curse that all mothers must face?
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